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21st Century Lesbian Trailer Trash

These are the mad musings of a middle aged woman, dyke, nurse, poet. I have a dog, a cat, a mobile home, and delusions of grandeur.

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Location: California, United States

Monday, December 19, 2005

Moments

I have my moments like this. Up before dawn. Brewing my coffee. Not even yet contemplating what my day might bring.

The only sounds are the heating system and the snuffling of the dog as she checks the cat litter for left over treats.

Nothing exists outside of my little safe space. No people, no demands, no bills, no errands, no deadlines. It is during moments like this that I try to define myself; often to no avail.

Sometimes I think I see the edges of me, fluttering around my peripheral vision like faeries.

I heard not long ago, that people are defined by their actions and not by what is inside. That's a little deep for me this early in the morning. I just know that I cannot thrive without these small spaces of solitude. It is as though life chips out little pieces of me. And I spend these quiet hours trying to paste them back on.


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3 Comments:

Blogger Seabiscuit said...

I saw a title called, "Pam's House Blend," recently and I thought of you. Cause you are a blend of sugar, spice, and trust me- you look very nice. ;)

Had to get a flirt in before the holiday.

Hugs!

5:47 PM PST  
Blogger NursePam said...

LOL! You just warmed the cockles of my li'l heart.

6:26 PM PST  
Blogger ~ nellenelle said...

Nice post...

if we are defined by our actions, I'm probably a dispicable human being. We make mistakes, we learn from the, we strive to be better, to learn... and imo, looking within is a huge part of this process. Someone can look at actions, but such outside and casual observance is frequently done in a vacuum... would they know I fought an inner battle for who I am?

Anyway... I treasure moments of solitude, sometimes for relaxation, sometimes to contemplate. There is so much *to* contemplate.

*hugs*

6:30 PM PST  

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